What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?
Last Updated: 20.06.2025 03:12
But, we were locked up after school.
But im dying ,and its too late for me.
Another so called friend had bit the dust..
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One cannot hold on to bitterness.
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This is soul school!.
That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.
Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..
Would this be the day?
I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.
I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.
Why does my mother care about my sister more than me?
I could never make a relationship work though!
Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..
Im still living with it.
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Where the ultimate outsiders.
I was seconnd youngest,
I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.
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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!
He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.
We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!
I had hoped to write a book about this .
But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .
Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.
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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.
On the 31st of Jan this month .
For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)
Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.
Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!
He was dying to do it , i knew.
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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .
I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor
Was to survive, this bastard.
How can someone in your family purposely try to destroy your reputation?
We were not on the streets..
She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!
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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.
You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.
So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.
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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..
He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.
I think the readers, may guess!
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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.
His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.
I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.
I don,t even have a pension.
I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)
With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.
Ive learnt so much.
She was in good health!
My mum and dad in the seventies!
Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..
I never cut or harmed myself..
He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!
I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.
Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years
And who doesn’t know suffering?
Put me off passion for life!!
They are buried together, in the same grave..
But ive been too sick for many years..
I said to her
I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .
I couldn’t, believe it.
And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .
But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).
Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.
They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?
We could never speak unless he spoke to us!
Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other
Why did i forgive my father ?
My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.
And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!
And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!
And, all my friends down the years ,where users.
I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.
Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.
Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.
Thats was my nicest nick name for him
She was a women, a mother with her own children!.
He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.
At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.
And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!
Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t
Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!
And i lived it daily.
My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!
My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.
As i do to all so called friends.?
I was writing from the time i was a small child.
And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)
I did it because my mum asked me too!
My family never makes their pension either.
I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.
I suffer greatly, because of BPD..
I was very sick at this time too.
Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?
Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.
He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .
The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,
When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!
Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.
Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)
But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!
She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.
Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.
As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.
Especially a lifetime of it.
5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.
My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.
I have no regrets .
Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!
All the time i was locked up.
My life is so biszare .
I waited trembling.
I write beautiful poetry .
My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .
So whats the point in blame.
She died at 55 of colon cancer.
Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.
19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.
She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!
We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..
It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.
I was 9 years of age.
But it wasn’t much.
Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.
Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.
Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.
(And it was in our own minds.)
As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!
I will be 64.
I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!
He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!
I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers
So, i spoilt her more .
The only rule us 5 kids had .
He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.
Who then, do I blame.?
I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.
I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.
One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.
He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!
Im dying but, im not bitter.
A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.
He resisted the act ,that day.
He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!
You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .
Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.
But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!
We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.
Comes on , in middle age.
Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.
He knew the spot.
She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.
But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !
BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.
So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.
One cannot live in the past .
We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.
As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!
We all went to grammer schools
But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,
I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.
She wouldn,t have been !
His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!
What did i know ?
One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.
She found it foreign!.
I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.
I was scared of men, in general
Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life
And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.
.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them
It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.
And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!
But im an empath, and i help lots of people.
The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!
Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!
Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.
She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!
It was going to be , some day.
As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.
Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.
Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.
The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.
This is how, and why children get BPD.
He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.
I might have to go back 30 generations or more..
But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!
One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)
When she asked me how she looked .
Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..
She married twice! .
She loved him until the end.
I of course replied” arh beautiful!
I know ,a lot about trauma.
Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.
As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)
Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!
I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!